If anyone could have told me...

If anyone could have told me
Id be here again
I would have laughed in their face
Thinking that silly me
I would have learned from
My mistakes
If anyone could have told me
Look out for the one with the pretty face
He'll be the one to do you over
Leave you home
And crying with disgrace
If anyone could have told me
Id be sitting at home
Waiting for a call or a text
To see what my next move would be
Id say now that couldnt be me
If anyone could have told me
Its ok to be alone
Because when you're alone
You evaluate who you are
What you want
How you want it
And never come in second place
If anyone could have told me
I wouldnt be sitting here
Writing this poem to you tonight
If anyone could have told me..

I feel nothing..

I feel nothing

Swallowed in the guilt

Of loving you

Thinking of everything

That was so untrue

I feel nothing

No aching heart

No hot streamy tears running down face

No tears

No fears

I feel nothing

As I look down at my phone

Noticing your name next to a text

No skipping beat of the heart

No smile upon my face

No amazement

Not even disgrace

I feel nothing

I've numbed myself to you

Because loving you is just the same

As feeling nothing

Lost in a game

I feel nothing..

All Of The World...-dedicated to michael jackson(jackson family)..

All of the world

Has stood still

Not really knowin how to deal

Or if the news was really real

All of the worlds

Eyes are filled with tears

Minds traveling

Every which was

Thinking this man has really touched my life

All of the world

Has come together

To celebrate a man

Whom most of us didnt understand

But still

Loved him anyway

Because his music

Touched us within

All of the world

Is now seeing what a great talent he was

And how lucky

We have been to have him

All of the world

Will miss you Mike

And you're story will never end..

I'm Lost..

I'm lost

In my thoughts

I don't where to go

Who turn to

Its feels like

Im alone

Even though theres

A house full of people

Just shoutin' about

I'm lost

I don't know how I got here

Was it back a couple years

When i should have been

screaming come save me my dear

I'm lost

I feel so empty

And without

Without things

That i have no clue

What lies within me

I'm lost

Like a child whose been serperated from its mother

At a local grocery store

And thinks

When's mommy gonna come save me

I'm lost

Thats all i can think

All these inner voices

Screamin' and shoutin' to me

Open you're eyes

And you will see

The way to me

I'm lost

But not for long

I'm findin' my way to me

And that's all I can say

Whose lost...

I Just Don't Have It In Me...

I just don't have it in me

To sit back

And watch

Time fly away

I just don't have it in me

Now that we are

Face to face

To say the things

I've longed to say

I just don't have it in me

To much time has past

And now you ask

To be you and me

Like it used to be

I just don't have it in me

To take two steps forward

And three steps

Back

Into the place

I no longer wish to be

I just don't have it in me

To listen to what my heart is tellin' me

Its time to move on

You've done it before

Now its my turn

I just don't have it in me

To see what you

Now see

I just don't have it in me..

I Stand Strong..

I stand strong

After all the things you've done

To me

I stand strong

After all the sacrafices

You've led me to do

For you

And all the things

I've gotten you through

I stand strong

After all the lies

And ways you've decieved me

Bruised eyes

And swollen lips

You've given to me

I stand strong

Knowing Iam free from you

To live my life

Without you by my side

Strinking down my pride

I stand strong

Here and now today

Knowing I will be ok

Becuase some weren't able

To make it anothere day

I stand strong..

I Can't Believe..

I can't believe

This wonderful breeze

Beautiful scenary

That you've pictured for me

I can't believe

That you're here with me

After all this time

We've spent apart

I can't believe

This night of all nights

You proposed to me

I can't believe

You're down

On you're knee

Saying you want

To spend the

Rest of your life with me

I can't believe

We've made it this far

Here as I think to myself

As I walk down the aisle

I can't believe

We've just said our vowels

And are now

Preparing a life

A dream it is to be

I can't believe..

My Mother Once Told Me..

My mother once told me

You have to learn how to stand

On your own two feet

My mother once told me

"I'm gonna show my girls

Don't depend on a man for anything"

My mother once told me

She's proud

Of the accomplishments

Her eldest has grown to be

And in her footsteps

She shall lead

For me

My mother once told me

Beauty and looks

Will get you so far

But brains and books

Will take you

To the stars

My mother once told me

I gave up alot for you two

Working theses jobs

For my kids

Dreams to pursue

My mother once told me

I love you angel

In my my heart I will keep

My three children close to me

My mother never told me

Did she get all these things

From her mother

I think

My mother once told me..

The Wind blows..

The wind blows cool

The wind blows warm

Seasons change

And like life

Can't stay the same

The wind blows

With a cool kind of sway

And like me

Just can't seem to find its way

The wind blows

Its destination is unknown

Like life

You never know where

You're gonna go

How long you're gonna stay

And the people you will intake

The wind blows

It slightly hits my face

I look up to the sky

And I know what

Life I should embrace

The wind blows

Time after time

And when you're gone

You to will become

The wind

That will gently

Touch the skin

Of lives who can't search within

The wind blows cool

The wind blows warm

The wind blows..

What Is Love..

Love

What does it really mean

Does it mean ill be there for you

When you're sick

Or need someone to talk to

What is love

How can you discribe it

Is it holding someones hand

While they've just been delivered

News that only you could understand

What is love

Where can you find it

Is it awaiting at your front door

Like a U.P.S package

You've ordered

Through a store

What is love

And why is it only a selected few have managed to find it

Did they curl their hair differently that day

Trim up those edges

Get rid of that 5 o'clock shadow

Walk up to you

And say hello

What is love

Is not the question

Where is love

To find

Is my destination

Ive realized over these past years

You can't force someone to feel what you do

How do you know what you're feelin' is love

Or something true

Love is always starrin' back at you

where you look is up to you

I turn to my family and friends

Whom I know

Will love me

To the end

That is love...

How Do I Choose?..

My heart weighs heavy

Filled with confussion

How do I choose?

Between two lovers

Who have taken me to places that ive never been

Lovers that i have given my all

How do I choose?

When everything in me is tellin me i need the both of you

How do i choose?

When my heart says that i don't have to

But my mind says i need to

How do i choose?

Now that i have the both of you

Standin' right infront of me

Screaming "choose me choose me"

How do i choose?

I choose someone that i've forgotten about

I choose me

Thats how i choose..