Letting go..

Suddenly Ive gotten so distant

Filled with bitterness

And depression

I think it's time for a confession

Letting things go day by day

Slowly but surely finding my way

The thought of you still weighs heavy on my mind

In my heart

I just feel like its a waste of time

Going from sad

To mad

To bad memories

Is what I get when I think of you

Letting it go

And breathing deep

I think Im okay with it not being you and me

Letting go and moving on

Taking time to heal the heart

And mind

Letting go its time I do

You let go of me

Before I let go of you

Letting go..

May 6th

May 6th

The day my heart shattered in a million pieces

Filled with so much hurt and anger

No one could believe it

Abandoned, empty, and feels like I can't breath

Someone should have told me it could happen to me

May 6th

The day the promise of youll be with me forever

Came crashing down on our future some how

May 6th

The day I found myself bent over crying while screaming out

"HOW!"

"WHY!"

"And doesnt he love me?"

May 6th

The day my heart skipped several beats

Because living without is something my heart won't do

...May 6th...

Just A Thought..

Just a thought on my mind

That has eaten away

No sleep

Cant eat

And crying endlessly

Somethings got to give

Or someone has to change

Things cant stay this way

The silence steadily rising

While the tears have heavyly fallen

No "goodnights I love you"

Or even a goodmorning to take on the day

While you laugh,joke and happily go on about your day

The one left behind will be the one that will stay

Just a thought on my mind

That wont go away

But the one I speaking of I hope wont fade away..

..Just a thought on my mind..

I Love You

The words have not yet been spoken

But my heart has already choosen

The one Im meant to be

And the one Im meant to be with

To long that Ive been clouded

By lust,temptations,and deception

Almost given in

Then this wouldnt have began

Words are just words

And feelings speak louder than words

And what we're feeling

Our hearts already know

So words don't need to be spoken

Since our hearts have already choosen..

My Heart Is Telling Me..

My heart is letting me know

Dropping little hints

Leaving certain gifts

Screaming "TIFF TIFF"

My heart is telling me something

Every skip and thump of the beat

Is a second closer I'll be

My heart is telling me

Damn near screaming out to me

Open your eyes and you'll see

My heart is throwing me little pieces

Lifting its shield on me

My heart is whispering

Finally revealing thee

My heart is telling me..

If anyone could have told me...

If anyone could have told me
Id be here again
I would have laughed in their face
Thinking that silly me
I would have learned from
My mistakes
If anyone could have told me
Look out for the one with the pretty face
He'll be the one to do you over
Leave you home
And crying with disgrace
If anyone could have told me
Id be sitting at home
Waiting for a call or a text
To see what my next move would be
Id say now that couldnt be me
If anyone could have told me
Its ok to be alone
Because when you're alone
You evaluate who you are
What you want
How you want it
And never come in second place
If anyone could have told me
I wouldnt be sitting here
Writing this poem to you tonight
If anyone could have told me..

I feel nothing..

I feel nothing

Swallowed in the guilt

Of loving you

Thinking of everything

That was so untrue

I feel nothing

No aching heart

No hot streamy tears running down face

No tears

No fears

I feel nothing

As I look down at my phone

Noticing your name next to a text

No skipping beat of the heart

No smile upon my face

No amazement

Not even disgrace

I feel nothing

I've numbed myself to you

Because loving you is just the same

As feeling nothing

Lost in a game

I feel nothing..